Do you ever have one of those days where you
feel like more of a cow than you really are? Well, mmmmooooooove over
and let me join you on that self-deprecating bench!
As you know, Wednesday is weigh-in day. I
always weigh myself first thing after I get up (and take that morning
pee). I then get ready and stop by the gym for my Biggest Loser
weigh-in. Every week, my home scale (with me buck naked –
don’t try to picture it) and the gym scale (with me clothed less my
shoes) weighs the same. Imagine my frustration when the home
scale had me losing 2 pounds, and the gym scale had me only losing 0.1!
For the purpose of my beads, I went with the home
scale; but the Biggest Loser contest doesn’t care about my home scale.
Needless to say, that put me off on the wrong hoof.
Then came the evening workout . . . I decided to try yoga and cardio dance. Yoga was a huge disappointment. I couldn't do half of the poses - the ones on your back. Thanks to my back issues, when I lay on my back, it feels like I have two fists digging into my lower back. I'm also just too self conscious. When I'm doing downward dog, all I can think of is my enormous butt sticking up in the air and how awful it must look.
Next came cardio dance . . . I know you will find this hard to believe, but I have NEVER danced. (gasp!) Yeah, I've never danced, I have no rhythm, I am white as white can be. I was doing fine while we were marching in place. Then the instructor started to move, and I quickly realized it wasn't going to happen. I believe my exact words were, "Yeah right - NOT!"
At this point, I was feeling like a big failure, but I went to find Philip to walk on the treadmill. When Philip's treadmill stopped working, I had enough; and we went home. Sadly, I cried the entire way home. I felt like such a failure. I was depressed. I was sad. BUT I didn't give up. I wanted to order and consume a large, 6 cheese pizza with pepperoni from Pappa Johns, but I didn't. I had a Boca burger with a big slice of tomato.
Today is a new day, and I received some very uplifting news!!! I made it to the leaders' board for the Biggest Loser!!! I'm in 5th place!!! I needed that so very bad!!! Check it out!!! Woot! Woot!
3 comments:
Awesome! A bit of a silver lining there I would say! :)
I'm always worried when you go more then 6 or 6 days without posting.
I'm glad good news came your way. Keep it up! You are an inspiration!
I agree with Ginger , I check everyday for a posting and pray extra hard when I don't see one . I think you are having fantastic victories each and everyday . I see hugh victories in this posting . Number one you went to the gym , you participated and you did not give in to the temptation of that pizza but went home and made a healthy dinner .WOW !!!! that sounds like a good day to me . I love you and know you are learning so much from this journey and you will be able to help others from what you are experencing .That includes the ups and the downs . The important thing is never give up and don't be so hard on yourself . Verse for the day is Psalm 27:14 . Love and Prayers , Mom
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