Do you ever have one of those days where you feel like more of a cow than you really are? Well, mmmmooooooove over and let me join you on that self-deprecating bench!
As you know, Wednesday is weigh-in day. I always weigh myself first thing after I get up (and take that morning pee). I then get ready and stop by the gym for my Biggest Loser weigh-in. Every week, my home scale (with me buck naked – don’t try to picture it) and the gym scale (with me clothed less my shoes) weighs the same. Imagine my frustration when the home scale had me losing 2 pounds, and the gym scale had me only losing 0.1! For the purpose of my beads, I went with the home scale; but the Biggest Loser contest doesn’t care about my home scale.
Needless to say, that put me off on the wrong hoof.
Then came the evening workout . . . I decided to try yoga and cardio dance. Yoga was a huge disappointment. I couldn't do half of the poses - the ones on your back. Thanks to my back issues, when I lay on my back, it feels like I have two fists digging into my lower back. I'm also just too self conscious. When I'm doing downward dog, all I can think of is my enormous butt sticking up in the air and how awful it must look.
Next came cardio dance . . . I know you will find this hard to believe, but I have NEVER danced. (gasp!) Yeah, I've never danced, I have no rhythm, I am white as white can be. I was doing fine while we were marching in place. Then the instructor started to move, and I quickly realized it wasn't going to happen. I believe my exact words were, "Yeah right - NOT!"
At this point, I was feeling like a big failure, but I went to find Philip to walk on the treadmill. When Philip's treadmill stopped working, I had enough; and we went home. Sadly, I cried the entire way home. I felt like such a failure. I was depressed. I was sad. BUT I didn't give up. I wanted to order and consume a large, 6 cheese pizza with pepperoni from Pappa Johns, but I didn't. I had a Boca burger with a big slice of tomato.
Today is a new day, and I received some very uplifting news!!! I made it to the leaders' board for the Biggest Loser!!! I'm in 5th place!!! I needed that so very bad!!! Check it out!!! Woot! Woot!